Monday, 17 April 2023

Of Whom The World Was Not Worthy

The Wisdom Of The Desert
Thomas Merton
New Directions
1970













“Of whom the world was not worthy: wandering in deserts, in mountains and in dens and in caves of the earth.” 
(Hebrews 11:38) 

I
What should he do now?
Don't place any confidence
in private virtue.
He must control his hunger,
and he must control his tongue.

II
Sit in submission.
Live as clean as possible.
Always be thankful.
These are the ways to practice
the silent presence of God.

III
Keeping his heart safe
can be done by faithfully
listening to it.
It alone knows what is best.
Only then can he do good.

IV
There are more than three
wise men found in the Bible.
Noah, Job, Daniel
can be added to the list
of those who knew to adore.

V
Hating vanity
and a very easy life:
the sine qua non
of freedom from distracting
communitarian strife. 

VI
If Abbot Pambo
is right, then he won't even
begin to begin
at the beginning during
this life of obedience.

VII
Brother to Elder:
"How is the fear of God gained?"
Elder to Brother:
"It is gained through poverty,
humility, and mercy."

VIII
Hermit to Hermit:
"Be careful not to water
any vegetables."
The young cenobites could not
outwit these wise old serpents. 

IX
This is the monk's work:
love the Lord and hate evil.
This is how it's done:
obeying, meditating,
and walking with Enoch's God. 

X
He does not argue.
“You know what you are saying”
is the end of it. 
And if someone speaks the truth,
he simply lets his Yes be.

XI
Determination
diminishes once his own
cell is abandoned. 
The no-longer-I reminds
him to remain where he is. 

XII
First he must flee men,
then he can be led toward
his own salvation.
This penultimate step is
the rooting of not sinning. 

XIII
If he asked Father
Moses of old for a good
word, would he tell him
to sit within his cell like
Abbot Moses in Scete?

XIV
How does the elder
know that the laughter he hears
is not an answer
in the presence of the Lord
of the heavens and the earth?

XV
If he thinks his tongue
is a stone within his mouth,
then he can carry
it easier than Abbot 
Agatho did for three years. 

XVI
It is not anger
that is the matter with him,
but rather whether
it ever gets to his lips. 
Silence keeps demons afraid. 

XVII
It was much better
for the brother not to sell
the book he stole from
Abbot Anastasius.
He returned then retained it.

XVIII
If you lose yourself
through your anger while trying
to correct someone,
you only gratify your
own passionate ambition. 

XIX
At least eating red
flesh and drinking fresh red wine
is not as bad as
devouring your brother
by detracting his person. 

XX
It’s better to have 
a cellar cave in on you,
than participate 
in acts that violate your 
level of maturity.  

XXI
The difference between 
a monk and a perfect one 
can be summed up thus: 
“...you would not even have looked 
...to see that we were women.” 

XXII
The brother showed him
his lacerated body
that the dogs and birds
were both responsible for.
With devils its even worse. 

XXIII
Abbot Macarius
spoke to Abbot Theodore
about the one thing
that is needful to truly
profit from his three good books. 

XXIV
To pray for fourteen
years without ceasing to rid
oneself of anger
is to apply Ephesians
chapter four verse twenty six. 

XXV
The most manual
monks are those intimately
tried by temptations.
The measure of their manner
is measured by their manners. 

XXVI
Patiently knowing
one's working limitations
is the hidden key
to getting anywhere in
our own virtuous labours. 

XXVII
Like a transplanted
tree that does not bear its fruit,
so is the moving
monk who does not remain still. 
He can never be planted. 

XXVIII
Solitude is both
the furnace of Babylon
for those seeking God,
and an ancient pillar of
cloud for those God is seeking. 

XXIX
The only response
to those who are traders in
words, and to those who
seek to glory in the words
of another, is silence.

XXX
Once you put into
practice the things that you write
about, then further
hand waving with words is no
longer a necessity. 

XXXI
Abbot Moses once
tried fooling a follower
into believing
that he was a heretic
in order to avoid him. 

XXXII
There is gluttony
of the flesh and of the soul.
To overcome both
one must fast, but in two ways:
avoid food and avoid fools. 

XXXIII
Martha embodied
Paul's pragmatic principle
"If any man will
not work, neither let him eat."
She's Mary's sine qua non:
there's no "best part" without her. 

XXXIV
Serapion sold
his copy of the Gospels
and gave the money
to the poor because the book
told him to sell and to give. 

XXXV
To pray "O God, we
worked hard for the food we eat,
so, thanks for nothing,"
is simply another way 
to pray like Abbot Sisois. 

XXXVI
To attribute all
things, both good and evil, to
the dispensation
of God's wisdom is the way
that one turns the other cheek.

XXXVII
"There once was a great
hermit in the mountains" is
all you need to know. 
Being touched by Poeman's words
is the basis for greatness. 

XXXVIII
To pass through the gate
requires rejecting the
turn to the subject.
This makes you realize that no
one ever gets insulted. 

XXXIX
Once upon a time
in the valley of the cells
a monk spoke vainly.
It is better to use salt
than it is to speak of it. 

XL
Those who sin remain
within the monastery
of necessity.
Abbot Bessarion taught
as much when he walked away. 

XLI
He carries on his 
back a basket full of holes
that sand falls out of. 
What is the basket, what are
the holes, and what is the sand?

XLII
What do we do when
we lose our nerve when sitting
alone in our cells?
If we don't despise, condemn, 
nor rebuke, then God gives peace. 

XLIII
He who said that "Thou
shall not fornicate" also
said "Thou shalt not judge."
Bourgeois hermits must show more
compassion toward themselves. 

XLIV
Abbot Ammonas
said: "Sit in your cell and eat
a little each day."
In this way we ask the Lord
to be merciful to us. 

Sunday, 16 April 2023

Suddenly


Saturday, 1 April 2023

April 2023

Gould's Grammy













Saturday April 01, 2023 
The writer in him 
rejoices that the only 
Grammy that Glenn Gould 
garnered during his lifetime 
was for writing liner notes.

Sunday April 02, 2023 
He waited beside 
the empty sea, wishing that 
they could simply be, 
kneeling in the sinking sand, 
with his head within his hands. 

Monday April 03, 2023 
An old Rick Deckard 
says to a young KD6 
that there are times when 
love demands that you become 
a cichy nieznajomy.   

Tuesday April 04, 2023 
“Don’t it always seem 
to go, that you don’t know what 
you've got 'til it’s gone.” 
For the first time in his life, 
his heart understands these words. 

Wednesday April 05, 2023 
“Ultimate concern” 
concerns him, ever since he 
embraced Paul Tillich’s 
Protestant Principle as 
his penultimate concern. 

Thursday April 06, 2023 
His muse inspires 
every single poetic 
word he has written. 
She is his without-which-not,
his secret sine qua non.  

Friday April 07, 2023 
His state of wonder 
and serenity began 
forty years ago 
when he heard the very first 
note of the first Aria.  

Saturday April 08, 2023 
Smiling, laughing, 
thinking, mourning, and crying 
while contemplating
his own joyful gratitude
for where the streets have no name.  

Sunday April 09, 2023 
When they met four years 
ago today, he broke down  
and cried tears of joy. 
He will never uncover. 
Will he ever recover? 

Monday April 10, 2023 
Old Blood's old remark 
“Not empiricism and 
yet realism 
in philosophy, that is 
the hardest thing” resonates. 

Tuesday April 11, 2023 
He needed to deal  
with some unnecessary 
trivialities  
in order to set his life 
in order before it ends. 

Wednesday April 12, 2023 
One way to say it: 
“Being is the principle 
without principle” 
(gesticulating with words 
is his peculiar habit).  

Thursday April 13, 2023
The only reason
why he writes his poetry
in the third person
singular is obvious:
he is no Henry Miller. 

Friday April 14, 2023 
The new luminous 
mysteries are as old as 
the gospel itself. 
Yet the Sedevacantist
in him passes them over.  

Saturday April 15, 2023 
Apophatism  
is the great leveler when 
it comes to dogma. 
Even Aquinas stopped his 
Summa after his vision.   

Sunday April 16, 2023 
On April sixteenth, 
two thousand and nineteen, he 
wrote Nagle (his own 
romantic recognition): 
“Rachel, her name was Rachel...” 

Monday April 17, 2023 
“Oh, my Lord your love 
completely envelopes me” 
(so sings Fred Again 
at the end of Tiny Desk 
on NPR radio).  

Tuesday April 18, 2023 
Cry to Him and He 
will hear thee, and He will shew 
thee great things, and sure
things which thou knowest not nor
ever will without His will. 

Wednesday April 19, 2023 
66 appeared 
to him yesterday morning 
while he was waking 
up for his 333.
Tempus fugit for him now.

Thursday April 20, 2023
And then suddenly
it is nagle once again
after a very
long period of silence.
This never goes unnoticed. 

Friday April 21, 2023 
Paying attention:
Herbert von Karajan’s E 
major was noticed.
Detecting details like this
is what seals the deal for him.  

Saturday April 22, 2023 
To say of God that 
His center is everywhere 
and His circumference 
is nowhere is to say that 
God is speechlessly simple. 

Sunday April 23, 2023 
Two birds were singing  
just outside of his lakeside 
loft as he woke up.
Their early morning love song
tenderly reminded him.

Monday April 24, 2023 
Systematizing 
every aspect of his life 
has been the basis 
for the spontaneity 
he so easily enjoys.

Tuesday April 25, 2023 
The precious little 
that is left, after his vast 
collection of words 
is given away, will still 
be present for the taking.  

Wednesday April 26, 2023 
When his health is poor,
people, places, and things that 
once were his concern
start to fade from consciousness. 
This happens more often now.

Thursday April 27, 2023 
“Visiting orphans 
and widows in their distress” 
has always been the 
best answer to the question: 
What makes your life worth living?

Friday April 28, 2023 
His father had a  
sign in his office that read: 
Aged Experience 
Will Always Win Out Over 
Youthful Enthusiasm. 

Saturday April 29, 2023 
April is their month. 
It shall continue to be  
his own Baltic see: 
fall in love with your eyes wide 
shut and always stay that way.  

Sunday April 30, 2023 
He knows what he is 
here for, and he remains true 
to what he must do 
until his beautiful friend 
(the end) closes all the doors.